My Rant For Today

I don't do much work but, the very thought of important things that need to be done before a certain deadline really stresses me out. I've been stressed out a lot lately. Mostly worrying about school work that's due soon. I read in my psychology book that the brain has certain ways to fight stress like Hypersomnia and Sleep Apnea. Lately I've been feeling a lot tired. I sleep for 8 to 10 hours at a stretch. I can't breathe through my nose as good as I used to like a few weeks back. These symptoms are all too familiar.

Few years back, I had a full course load and a part-time job. My Hypersomnia got worse, I was sleeping 12 to 14 hours a day and my Sleep Apnea was so severe that I could hardly get any air through the nasal cavity. I snored so loud at night that sometimes it even woke me up. During those 6 to 10 months, my nights were horrible, deprived of sleep and all.

Today something very odd happened with respect to my behavior. I'm comfortable around the people I know. I joke and talk about whatever comes to mind, I'm a bit annoying in other words. Sometimes those who know me say something rude to get me off their backs and I say something smart and not-nice back and be on my way. But, if some stranger ever says something rude or makes an insensitive remark, I just walk away, sometimes even with this dumb smirk on my face that I can't help avoiding.

So, I was at the Student Center going about my academic related work, getting signatures and filling out forms etc. I had to make a couple of laps down it's corridor back and forth. There was some kind of a conference going on in one of the rooms. Three women apparently were with the conference organizers designated outside with a long table laid out in the corridor in such a way that it was covering almost the whole passage way. I think they were there to register the conference participant's name or something. There was only enough space for one person to pass, also where one of the ladies was standing and covering the whole passage way. I came around, she was busy writing down something didn't notice me standing until I said "Excuse me", She raised her head up, saw me and stepped aside and I went on my way. I came back after 5 - 10 minutes from whatever I was doing and there she was blocking the whole way. The same thing happened and I went by. The same thing happened for 3 or 4 more times and each time I said to myself, "Why don't they move the table parallel to the wall and make it easier for people to pass?". There were other people trying to pass by, which may have made her a little irritated. On my fifth pass she stepped aside and said to me "Is this your way of attracting women's attention?". I thought she said that to some guy behind me and turned around to look, only to find out that she was staring at me with this angry expression on her face. I stopped dead in my tracks with this shocked look on my face. I couldn't believe that my honor would ever be threatened in such a way. My first instinct kicked in to apologize, and I said to her "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to.....", I looked around at the table and said to myself "Wait a minute, I'm not the one at fault here. She's the idiot blocking the whole way". I paused for 2 or 3 seconds to think of a serious response and said to her "No Ma'am, only to those idiots who think its alright to block a busy corridor." then I walked away. As I walked away a considerable distance, I didn't feel any guilt for saying that. Next time I used the corridor on the other floor.

I still feel weird for not feeling guilty about it. I'm not the same person as I was before all this time and its freaking me out a bit.